Inner Wisdom & Creativity Blog

Wow! What a day!

If you’re a friend, family member or have been part of my social media circle, you’ll know that I’ve been keen to launch myself and my self mastery coaching and mentoring but something has been holding me back like a vicious circle.

I have written notebooks full of ideas and I’ve had the ‘know how’ to set up coaching programs and multiple streams of income as part of my business. I’ve taken in a lot of info, watched a lot of videos, listened to a lot of teleseminars and audios, read many books. All the while hitting a brick wall every time it came to pulling together my “stuff” and launching it in a particular way.

Lately I’ve really been feeling the frustration of having great ideas but hitting that block…around and around again. BUT, I did know that something would have to give eventually and that I was still in a process of clarifying until I tapped into that missing piece of my internal puzzle.

Today was one of those really strong angst days where I was so sick of not moving forward.

I decided to ask my soul what it wanted.

I acknowledged that one of my strongest core values for my business is FREEDOM – to express who I am and in sharing my gifts to help others. It’s why I left my previous business partnership. My soul longed for freedom and no constriction.

Herein lies the conflict. I kept trying to use a business model where I would be packaging my “content” and offering it in different ways to clients. Something kept feeling unsettled about that and I KNOW to listen to my intuition…it’s just that sometimes we know something’s off but we don’t know why or what to do about it.

The good thing is that the more roadblocks we hit and the more frustrated we are, coming head-on with what we DON’T want, we eventually get to that place where we can clarify what we DO want. When we reach that point where we can ask the right question, the answer ALWAYS comes. I knew this but it didn’t help me stop the frustration of not HAVING that answer yet.

As I’ve been exploring various business models and what others are doing, I repeatedly identified some things that didn’t sit right with me (not that they weren’t right for others…just that they didn’t resonated with how my soul wanted to express itself). As I encountered them repeatedly it helped me become clear about what I wanted.

Earlier today I wrote down clearly that I wanted to be “leading edge”…not to do something someone else was doing. I also realised that I was most passionate about what I do when I’m in the process of helping someone – I wanted to feel passionate in my work, not to have to write an article or seminar just to have content to share. I had this inner sense of co-creating with people. I also realised that I’d previously observed how others naturally draw from me what they need, from their own asking. So I had to acknowledge that a big part of who I am and what I do is in working intuitively, without a pre-determined plan for “content”.

Ahhhh….my soul took a deep breath! While I knew these things about myself like seeing myself doing retreats and feeling strongly drawn to connect directly with people, I devalued this about myself by thinking I still had to package myself like everyone else and offer that “content” in some way. Wrong. In the last 24 hours this little voice in the back of my head was telling me that I needed my own business model. When the bits fell into place and I stopped trying to fit the “template”, my soul started buzzing.

Another AHA – the purpose of past pathways becomes clear…

From 1999 to 2002 I studied for 4 years to earn a Bachelor of Education degree where I explored my love of learning but felt conflicted with the restrictions in the education system. I didn’t end up teaching like I’d envisioned for those 4 years but I was divinely guided to then home school my eldest children for 2 years…and now I know why. EVERYTHING I identified about learning naturally and providing the space for learning to take place as a facilitator and guide… is WHO I AM. I’ve known I am a guide but it’s really deeply hit home how it all ties together for me.

So, this is what you can expect from me:

• facilitating sacred environments and opportunities for you to connect with your soul in your own unique and powerful way
• to be there to intuitively answer your questions based on my own connection to Source…being the guiding light that allows you to tap into your own inner light
• to be the one who sees your truth and value and reflects that back to you
• to integrate your powerful transformation and insights with casual, fun, playful and creative environments – bring on the coffee-shop gatherings!
• to guide you into the space where you can tap into your own inner wisdom, inspiration and creativity
• to gather together circles of women where everyone’s knowing can deepen and widen by co-creating together – this is the leading-edge stuff where we all contribute to expanding each other’s knowledge, wisdom and inspiration. Bring your pens and notebooks!

Ain’t it grand! LOL

This is my thing at the moment. I had an AHA moment a couple of weeks ago when thinking (yet again) about how I so desperately need to declutter and clean the home (it doesn’t help that I have 4 kids to mess it up).

I’ve been more conscious of how the energy of what I do and think FEELS to me – whether it’s restrictive in my body or feels expansive and flowing.

In that moment that I thought about my need to declutter (after all, I know it’s restricting me on many levels in my life – perhaps one of the biggest ways I’ve been holding myself back and hiding out!!), I felt how that word was negative for me and I knew I had a choice in how I thought about this issue.

So, I had the inspiration to focus on creating beautiful spaces! What an energy shift!

When I think about creating beautiful spaces in my home, one room at a time, I feel inspired and start to envision how I want that room to be. I allow myself to buy a few nice items to add to the room AFTER it had been cleared out, cleaned, and I invite back into that room, the things that bring me joy. Yes, there’s still decluttering and cleaning involved, but the vision of the end result and the creativity I have in the process is so much more motivating that it’s worth it to me!

I started with the smallest room a few days ago – our ensuite. I threw old all the old lotions and potions, scrubbed everything down and put a bare few things on display, with all the necessary items organised nicely in the drawers and cupboard. That small change was so inspiring to me that I kept the ensuite door open for several days to delight in the lovely spacious, clean and ‘pretty’ space I’d created. I did add a new plant that was a finishing touch and also brought in my favourite thing – nature energy!

Yesterday, the kids and I found some wonderful bargains after I set the intention to create a beautiful loungeroom space. Over $240 worth for under $100 at Target! Woo hoo! I got new lounge covers, candles, another Buddha, a vase and greenery, and more! Here’s some pics…

Lounge beautification

Cosy, fresh and new

Peaceful corner nook

P.S. Oh, did you notice my Declutter Challenge post a few weeks back? I never got past Day 1. It’s that mindset shift that really needed to take place to find authentic motivation and my goal all along was to have beautiful spaces that allow my energy to flow.

Can you look at your rooms with new visionary eyes and intend to create beautiful spaces too? I’d love to hear how you go!

In a moment of truthful, authentic connection I have written the following. While some relates to me, it is also about the “we” that we are all a part of.

May something in this touch your soul…

I am a Goddess.

I am beautiful, divine and unique.

Through my creativity and passion I create products and programs that directly touch the hearts of others and connect them to their own divinity and inner divine feminine Goddess.

By developing ‘right relationship’ in my own life, in all areas, I teach others the paths to developing their own ‘right relationships’.

There is no separation, only unity.

There is no “I”, only “we” in community and co-creation. Always it has been this way but now we see it and work WITH it rather than against it.

In all things we are working in the flow of what feels right to us.

We do not fight to have something or fight against something bad because this isn’t in harmony with what we know as spirit and THAT is the reason we feel bad about those things.

We trust that all is well.

We trust in the universe to guide us but we do have a duty to ourselves to foster our inner and outer connection to ALL, so that we can read and feel the signs given us. It makes life so much easier when we LISTEN.