Inner Wisdom & Creativity Blog

Wow! What a day!

If you’re a friend, family member or have been part of my social media circle, you’ll know that I’ve been keen to launch myself and my self mastery coaching and mentoring but something has been holding me back like a vicious circle.

I have written notebooks full of ideas and I’ve had the ‘know how’ to set up coaching programs and multiple streams of income as part of my business. I’ve taken in a lot of info, watched a lot of videos, listened to a lot of teleseminars and audios, read many books. All the while hitting a brick wall every time it came to pulling together my “stuff” and launching it in a particular way.

Lately I’ve really been feeling the frustration of having great ideas but hitting that block…around and around again. BUT, I did know that something would have to give eventually and that I was still in a process of clarifying until I tapped into that missing piece of my internal puzzle.

Today was one of those really strong angst days where I was so sick of not moving forward.

I decided to ask my soul what it wanted.

I acknowledged that one of my strongest core values for my business is FREEDOM – to express who I am and in sharing my gifts to help others. It’s why I left my previous business partnership. My soul longed for freedom and no constriction.

Herein lies the conflict. I kept trying to use a business model where I would be packaging my “content” and offering it in different ways to clients. Something kept feeling unsettled about that and I KNOW to listen to my intuition…it’s just that sometimes we know something’s off but we don’t know why or what to do about it.

The good thing is that the more roadblocks we hit and the more frustrated we are, coming head-on with what we DON’T want, we eventually get to that place where we can clarify what we DO want. When we reach that point where we can ask the right question, the answer ALWAYS comes. I knew this but it didn’t help me stop the frustration of not HAVING that answer yet.

As I’ve been exploring various business models and what others are doing, I repeatedly identified some things that didn’t sit right with me (not that they weren’t right for others…just that they didn’t resonated with how my soul wanted to express itself). As I encountered them repeatedly it helped me become clear about what I wanted.

Earlier today I wrote down clearly that I wanted to be “leading edge”…not to do something someone else was doing. I also realised that I was most passionate about what I do when I’m in the process of helping someone – I wanted to feel passionate in my work, not to have to write an article or seminar just to have content to share. I had this inner sense of co-creating with people. I also realised that I’d previously observed how others naturally draw from me what they need, from their own asking. So I had to acknowledge that a big part of who I am and what I do is in working intuitively, without a pre-determined plan for “content”.

Ahhhh….my soul took a deep breath! While I knew these things about myself like seeing myself doing retreats and feeling strongly drawn to connect directly with people, I devalued this about myself by thinking I still had to package myself like everyone else and offer that “content” in some way. Wrong. In the last 24 hours this little voice in the back of my head was telling me that I needed my own business model. When the bits fell into place and I stopped trying to fit the “template”, my soul started buzzing.

Another AHA – the purpose of past pathways becomes clear…

From 1999 to 2002 I studied for 4 years to earn a Bachelor of Education degree where I explored my love of learning but felt conflicted with the restrictions in the education system. I didn’t end up teaching like I’d envisioned for those 4 years but I was divinely guided to then home school my eldest children for 2 years…and now I know why. EVERYTHING I identified about learning naturally and providing the space for learning to take place as a facilitator and guide… is WHO I AM. I’ve known I am a guide but it’s really deeply hit home how it all ties together for me.

So, this is what you can expect from me:

• facilitating sacred environments and opportunities for you to connect with your soul in your own unique and powerful way
• to be there to intuitively answer your questions based on my own connection to Source…being the guiding light that allows you to tap into your own inner light
• to be the one who sees your truth and value and reflects that back to you
• to integrate your powerful transformation and insights with casual, fun, playful and creative environments – bring on the coffee-shop gatherings!
• to guide you into the space where you can tap into your own inner wisdom, inspiration and creativity
• to gather together circles of women where everyone’s knowing can deepen and widen by co-creating together – this is the leading-edge stuff where we all contribute to expanding each other’s knowledge, wisdom and inspiration. Bring your pens and notebooks!

Ain’t it grand! LOL

I can’t wait for 2010 because I’m launching my authentic soulful business that’s going to help women in so many ways, with the major benefit being stepping into their own authentic and powerful selves. It’s about removing all obstacles and living your dreams….but so much more than even that. Powerful stuff!

I’ve always shared my own processes with people quite openly because I know in sharing what I experience and go through, others can connect with that and learn from it too. This is also about being authentic and knowing that I help people most strongly from the place of having experienced that situation or obstacle myself – this is the coach/guide in me.

In the last couple of weeks I’ve been inspired greatly with my soulful business projects and developing them. However, I started to feel like I was going backwards again or hitting a wall. I got to the point of having my head in my hands asking “What do I do????”. I’d overwhelmed myself and lost my clarity.

‘Alas’, ’sigh’, or whatever spirit would amusingly say at watching me struggle against myself, I suddenly “got it!” this morning. “About time” I hear spirit say. But, in my usual excitement of having an “aha moment” and loving the process of life-long learning even if it means times of struggle, I have come out the other end of yet another of those internal, self-created struggles….and I LOVE it!

As I said, I’ve known that I would teach others and guide them based on my own experiences and understandings. What had I done? What was I NOT doing? I had gotten ‘busy’ with my plans and trying to do, create, and develop WITHOUT ALIGNING MY ENERGY! Oops!

This is part of being a passionate person who loves to plan and create. I get carried away sometimes and forget to check in regularly with myself – the deeper guiding self who knows the bigger picture. As an intuitive person, I could feel the types of things I would be doing in my work and I was trying to just get on with them and do them, not stopping long enough to realise that I was forgetting to align my energy by connecting with my deeper self during the process. So, I was causing myself angst when these “right” things just didn’t work (don’t ask me how many times I’ve tried to record some simple audios lately! eek!).

Lesson of the day: We must remove our sense of ‘hurry’ and desire for immediate results. If we try and bypass aligning our energy first, we just end up right back where we started, or end up going around in circles.

I have to laugh at myself. I was trying to teach without APPLYING the roadmap myself. I always knew I would “live the process” and I certainly am. I do really love it! Learning is my true love – loving the process of learning, of going through something and in a moment waking up to something you were missing. It’s delicious!

So now I’m no longer rushing to have something ‘presentable’ in regards to my soulful business. I know that it’s right now that the details and deepest insights are coming together as I commit to being in the process myself, authentically and delightfully.

Stay tuned as I share my daily processes on the Inner Wisdom & Creativity Blog. As I set myself tasks I’ll be sharing them here and I challenge you to take on the same tasks, ask the same questions, and find your own answers.

Brilliantly yours,
Donna